This is one of my D&D Characters that I play on Saturday night table top via Roll 20. I am having a lot of fun with her so I decided to draw her.
Zanaferiel Autumn Leaf
120 years old
Hair: Blue Hair Silver Streaks
Weight/height: 100 lbs, 5’4’’”
She is lean with slight curves and her thick dark blue hair has silver streaks reaches down her back.
Adventurous, flirtatious, a bit naive, but extremely passionate and she wears her emotions on her sleeve. She is sweet and enduring as a kitten but she has a bit of a temper that can turn her into an angry tigress. She has a lot of compassion and very opened minded for others and tries not to judge people to harshly. Combined with her wanderlust and her need to learn more of her abilities then her home could provide she began to go a bit stir crazy. She yearned to go off to some of the bigger cities that had more extensive knowledge.
She is the younger daughter of Laeroth and Auluua. Her dad was a warrior and her mother was a healer. They were both counselors to the clan’s elders. Her parents found out early that she had innate magical abilities. They surrounded her with the few magic users they had in their clan. Her father saw her as “his little princess” because of her free spirited innocence she was very much a Daddies girl. She also had a sister and her father was very protective of them both. As her yearning to go to larger cities to study more magic grew, her father thought otherwise and insisted it wouldn’t be safe for her and she was to naïve to go. As she matured she started to resent her father for holding her back. This often led to arguments and very loud debates. Even though some of their relationship was rocky as she fought for her independence she adored her father. He was a hero to her. Her mother was more supportive of her ambition and often told Laeroth that he was being too protective. She often consoled both her daughters (her sister also wanting to find her own path) that their father didn’t want to let go because he’d miss them dearly.
One morning she had one of her very loud “debates” with her father about leaving. They shouted back and forth for quite a while until she ran off to the woods to let off steam by practicing her sorcery. All of sudden she heard screams coming from her small elven village she saw her sister coming through the trees and grabbed her by the arm screaming “Drow we must run”. Despite all her years of wanting nothing more than to leave at this moment at this time all she wanted was to see her village again knowing it was probably distorted by Drow. This isn’t how she wanted to leave. She didn’t want to leave her father after just having a fight that never got resolved. All she could do was go and learn magic and coming back to find him. Even though she was a sorceress she prayed to her Gods that she’d find her parents and make things right with him.
As she ran with her sister she is often conflicted about running back to try and find her father or go off and have adventures. She is in constant turmoil about leaving the way she did and her last encounter with her father occasionally eats at her. She wants to find her own way but needs closure with her father. She often fights with anger and sadness. She normally confides to her sister but she is too ashamed to go into detail about what happened with the and her father. She just tells her sister she is worried about their parents and misses them. The explanation seems to be good enough for her sister without having to dig farther.
For some reason the raid also wanted her to learn more about Drow. She wondered “are all of them really that evil? She often battles for lust of revenge to curiosity that is Drow. How can a kindred be so different from her culture?
While Zana is friendly and social she often comes off flirtatious unintentionally. While she has quite a few male friends many of the females look at her with loathing. She can’t seem to understand why that is and often feels rejected by her own sex. One particular elf Manfea MoonGlow sees her as compotation and often convinces the rest of the women in her clan to snob her. She made it very difficult for her to move up the social later.
While she paled around with the guys one male Jal’ fein Malina had a crush on her. He was about a century older than she. They were best friends and quite close. He never was able to admit his adoration for her. She personally didn’t believe someone like him who was a strong handsome Cleric/Warrior who could have had pretty much any female in the village would even think that of her, especially being that much older than she. They talked for long hours dreaming about being gryphon riders and fight side by side. He with his bow/sword and healing powers and her with her spells raining down havoc on the evil in the world. She misses him dearly almost as much as her parents.
While there are a few Wizards in her village she is the only sorceress. The wizards were able to help her tune into some of innate magic but she really needs a tutor more suited for her needs (another reason she wanted to leave).
I still have moments when I get stressed, upset, feel lonely, and express anger but they only last for so long now. Instead of in mostly sorrow and depression with only moments of happiness I am now in reverse. I am healing form much of my life's turmoil. Many of you don't understand the battle I had over the years. Some of you may think "oh she hasn't had a bad life". Especially those who know me for most of it. I will tell you, you have no clue what went behind close doors or the playground cruelty that I still battle with today. I will leave it at that. For I no longer want to focus on that I want to focus on all the glory God gives!
Yes I will still have negative moments and negative thoughts. I mean gezz we do live in a fallen world. But I don't have to cling on to them!. I have learned to be in a general state of contentment. No it isn't because I am married (I still feel lonely at times), it isn't because I financially stable (I live with the constant reminder I could lose my job at any moment), and it isn't because I have a cat. It is because I learned a lot about me and still am. I am trying to build a relationship with God like I have never known. The last 2 years have been life changing but not in extreme way. I am experiencing a gentle subtle touch from Jesus not an emotional high moment found from some church alter call, retreat or revival. While they have there place once but when I left those venues I ended up still battling in my private corners of my mind. If I wasn't constantly going to one of those broken and needing "the holy spirit to fill me" I'd be right back were I was. I am not even sure what clicked but things are changing. Changing in the quite, serenity I never knew. I never understood, as all I knew was dramatic highs and lows. I didn't think calm or stillness was that great. I thought it was boring. Oh how wrong I was!
I am learning how wonderful the sweet calm blissfulness of the early morning. The sweet calm of a night time wind crashing the waves on the shore. The enjoyment of just "being" in his presences.
So with that I say AMEN AMEN GLORY TO GOD MOST HIGH!!
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